We have difficult decisions to make. Perplexing, tiring, difficult, complicated circumstances. Thankfully we have a home still and a roof over our heads! Well the gale blowing this evening might just answer that statement!
So much is happening in the world, so much turmoil. So much of it caused by resentment and past grieviences. So much that could be resolved by generosity of spirit and hand. I am thinking of Gaza. I wonder and pray if both parties could simply decide to meet each others needs. Reb Jeff posted a beautiful blog today, and yes I put a comment up. How wonderful if those warring neighbours truly made peace.
A ceasefire is not a peace.
This morning I was reading through past sermons, and flipping through books that I have to turn out. Each speaking words of comfort and reassurance to me from days gone by.
What has to be done in order to renew my lapsed encounter with God? These 'trials' we have certainly send me seeking divine help. I seem to have lapsed into a stupour over the last few months, living with the uncertainties of moving home. These personal events have eclipsed my sense of wider meaning and involvement, my caring what happens elsewhere. A self centeredness, and blocked sensibilities.
Yes we have been turning out and dispensing with our belonings and material baggage. We took five boxes of lovely books to the booksale depot today. I jokingly said that come next october we might be able to buy them back if we have enough room to put them in!
I must turn out wardrobes, and declutter old costume jewellery given to me. I think this needs to go to the hospice shop. Nothing of intrinsic value, just sentimental treasure of grandma's beads, and my mother's costume jewellery. I haven't ever worn any of it, so it is pointless keeping these things.
I read a portion of a commentary this morning that explained that our emotions are also God given. That God has the power to hold our emotions back or to give them full expression. I have never read this before, or even thought it.
This makes sense. Much of this turning out is quite dispassionate, and yet when a dear aunt who is the most wonderful christian soul dropped by to see how we were doing this morning, I found myself shedding a few tears. Blessedly so, as I know I am greiving to be moving home, yet I am not so emotionally disturbed that I can't simply let things go. We hugged each other, as she too is going through a difficult time. Words of comfort shared together is the most blessed of gifts.
Thank God, God is God! Totally reliably God. God who blesses in the middle of upheavals, strife, uncertainties and fears. God who protects and keeps us from our own destruction. God who invites us to walk each sure footed step of the way, just one step at a time. Blessing us and speaking to us as the moment calls. For an amen to our prayers that resounds through heaven and earth.
I hope anyone reading this also has the blessing of true inner peace they need to find in trusting God implicitly for all their needs, decisions, and guidence through a difficult time.
I am still not Sure what G20 are really getting up to. They all look very smug about something. The radio is coming out with a load of gibberish as well. I even found myself having a good laugh over a Dolphin Joke today.
Something tells me we are really getting stitched up with the skynet thing weaving itself up. My problem is that we are already fed a shed load of whitewash over everything. If all we can read is on Kindle notepads, and all the books get re-cycled who is to say what we will get spoonfed on in future. You only have to tell a child black is white, or white is black and you get all sorts of problems going on. That is what all those race wars were about in effect. Who is going to allow freedom of information when all that the 99% get is spin, doctored history, and no reference books. Remember Hitler burned books as well as people.
The Holocaust was exactly that, the result of testing Atom bombs. Now we are destroying the integrity of our planet with even more insiduous means.
The quality of education in schools has become abysmal. Nothing is taught about the natural world, culture, history, religion, sciences, geography..... I hated being at school, it was a bad nightmare for me.
I just got myself chucked out of class so I could read what interested me in the library.
It isn't knowledge that is valuable in itself, it is insight and widom that is so much more. The Story of Adam and Eve is about the evolution of humanity. If we had the opportunity to go back and tell Eve not to eat the apple, would we do this? How far are we prepared to go to discover the 'truth' about ourselves, when perhaps the ony way to truly see reality is to see who we are in the eyes of another person.
Is assassinating someone else's character or their body and spirit, Satinising yourself? Perhaps we need to be sanitised of all this unwholesome media. The 'Medians', The 'Phillistines' and all the other attackers and 'hakkers' we have had to suffer for so long. The internet and TV media is so censored already... as it has been since the very early days of pamphlets and broadsheets.
There is something pretty amazing happening right now, although I only seem to get hints of it. We have lost our way in this journey we call life together. We are lost in music, a static haze of jamming, so we can't hear the universe, or our own thoughts any longer. This does seem apocalyptic to me. I felt that I would see this come one day in my lifetime.
God promises us a new heaven and a new earth. I have just finished reading Exodus in Aviva's commentary, She has blown me away with it! I am still digesting it, so I feel pretty wierd.
Sweet dreams, I am sure it will all work out, God always has a plan. Please let wisdom prevail, rather than trying to blow each other up. We all have to work together on fixing the world up, and learning to appreciate each other a lot more. Everyone needs to keep on with these peaceful demonstrations, and get all the politicians to support the people again, instead of playing backroom poker with our lives. Lets see every shady character come right out of the woodwork.
Guess I ought to find out how this works...