My Husband decided to take me for a walk with the dog, and then take me out for a lunch. It was lovely and a simple enjoyable day. I have spent the afternoon cutting out dress fabric. I got the patterns I ordered and I started making a little summery dress monday afternoon. It uses my time, and although this one is fiddly rather than difficult sets me a challenge. It has lots of ruffly bits. Might make a change for me as I am not normally very pretty and ruffly.
I somehow think we are going to have a lovely summer, lots of warm sunny days. I just fancy trying out some prettier stuff, rather than everything being practical. Perhaps my mood is lifting from that heavy winter feeling I get. I can't say it's depression as I don't feel down, just a bit uninspired to do things.
I was saying to my Husband I think I am in a good place at the moment. I have always been 'driven'. Always needing to succeed in what I took on in business. I was always trying to put in every effort to get results. I suppose a perfectionism that few people want to live with. In the last week or so I have found this sort of feeling has gone. I haven't got to strive for results any longer, I can get the results I want, from simple days, with a bit more patience. I have arrived I suppose... into a mellow middle aged retirement!