For about six weeks before Christmas I had a hacking cough which I couldn't shake. Felt pretty rough with it as well. Anyway with an abundance of rain, and a lot of interesting news, as well as dreadful tragic  news I spent all Christmas nursing my cough and being a wicked Troll on RT.

I think we all ought to lighten up a bit for 2018. We have all had to suffer endless bad news and hysteria from the US over Korea and Russia. Not to mention the Cat getting into the picture over the Israeli embassy and Jerusalem declaration by POTUS.

A lot of good things have happened this year too. At least the UN said they didn't agree, which is a start.

I do feel worried for everywhere under sanctions and blockades that are causing real humanitarian suffering.

We are recognising how bad the plastic in oceans has become, and even considerg how to avert problems before they begin.

I think the comman person is beginning to get a voice again. We have been silenced for too long. 

My thoughts turn to the New year Celebrations. We have invited some friends round tomorrow afternoon. I felt God wanted me to lead a little family worship with them and their Children, which I must prepare. They are only very young, so I am going to ask them what things they think they will make as new year resolutions.

Then I am going to say that the special resolution we can make this New Years Eve is to find Jesus in our lives every day for 2018. That for a Christian following Jesus every day is like a New Year's Day when we can leave the past behind us, and choose to live more like Him, and follow his teachings.

This makes us better people, who can forgive others and bring the Joy and Happiness into the world that Father God loves to see. We can see people who need our help in new ways, and find new ways to help other people.

Its a challenge talking to Children about Jesus, I hope it's a good message for them... and anyone who happens to read this too.

God bless you in Jesus Christ, and may you have a wonderful New Year every day in 2018.

Here is something interesting. I have been having trouble with flat screen TVs for years.

What I find is that over the years the colours are becoming increasingly fluorescent and over vibrant. It gives me not only a headache, but makes me very agitated. Also the sound of the TVs has deteriorated significantly. The sound seems distorted and my ocular acuity is so intense normally that even slight distortion is like a road drill going off just outside my house.

So I found out a couple of days ago I am not going mad after all. My husband is blissfully unaware of this, albeit going steadily deaf, and blind, and irritatingly non responsive.

I had a long chat with the TV man about the problems I experience watching TV, and explained it was almost torture being in the same room. That I also could not cope with fast forward adverts as the flashing was really painful.

Well it turns out that this is how TVs are set these days, and it is up to the user to dim down and reset their viewer preference. I suppose it took about half an hour in total to explain this to the TV guy who was fitting a new sort of box for us. He was so helpful. We went through all the backlight, contrast, type controls, and set up a preference for me on the movie setting. Deep joy, he also managed to alter the sound somewhat.

However the final solution to the sound will be a sound bar, so that I should not experience the sound distortion from the TV not having sufficiently good speakers. He is looking into one that works in conjunction with the TV, so that we don't have to adjust the sound separately. Apparently the only one that works with the TVs synchronistically is the Sonos, but at £600 it a heft price. Brilliant sound quality though.

well talking to a friend with 4 young children and this subject came up, He said his kids turn into howling rats the moment the adverts come on. I said that's because the colour saturation and volume goes up during adverts.

Anyway I have come to the conclusion the TV on these bright settings with poor sound quality either causes you to go deaf and blind, or suffer acute attacks of anxiety and depression.

​voila.

I love it when just in a moment God changes how I see things. Changes how I feel. Changes the very direction of my life.

The world has been so depressing. Endless scandals, news daily of child molesting, slavery, death from starvation for countries at war. More wars, more threats of war. Terrible accidents like the train crash in France. Acts of terrorism. There is so little good news.

Yet just a glimpse of a bright sky flooded with golden light, illuminating bare trees golden, and catching a Seagull turning with its feathers lit like a golden lamp just made my heart soar. To see the full ark of a rainbow for an instant painted in watercolour delicacy in golden pink clouds.

God just said to me, 'I am bringing what was in the darkness into the light'.

I should rejoice then that God is unmasking all this evil in our world, exposing it for what it is. 

We have lost our way, we have all turned away from God.

I went to bed last night asking God what was wrong with me, why did I feel so miserable. Why am I so short tempered. Even with a bad cough, I shouldn't be so grumpy and impatient. I asked if I had somehow allowed Satan into my life.

So his answer is 'Yes, you forgot my promise that I would bring all things hidden into the open'.

He is also reminding me it is not my responsibility but His, to change the hearts of humankind towards his grace. 

He is reminding me He will never destroy this planet or us his people.

He is reminding me that all of heavens armies will overpower Satan and his demons.

He is telling me to get on with cooking, and looking after my husband, and keeping well.

To that end I realise I am spending too much time following the news, mostly on RT, because I can read it. I hate video news clips. I am also spending too much time being a troll!!

I don't interact much with other people. Even my husband doesn't want conversation. I suppose I use the troll section for some interaction. I also think it can be very funny. My husband just doesn't get what makes me laugh, and he doesn't like me laughing hysterically at something he doesn't understand.

I don't cry very easily either. So I suppose I get angry inside rather than taking these feelings to God. 
The truth is I am calm up to the point that I explode. My husband says he has no idea that I am so angry at times. It's like one final thing triggers a disproportionate response.

I try to explain that it's all the compromises and feelings that I am just ignored by everyone. When I try to speak to people, they interrupt, change the subject. Trolls on RT stay more on subject than most people I try to speak to... 

I suppose this has left me with this cutting ironic humour. The trouble is when I do want to talk about something, it's like the floodgates open, and I don't even realise myself how much I understand and want to communicate.

​Which really brings me back to the reason I started this blog! Bored and lonely for chit chat!