I went 'high' over summer. That's a Bi-Polar Hypermania, or is that now Hypomania, they keep changing what it's called. Still, it's the same thing.
I actually had very good treatment this time. As a self admitted patient I got to choose how the medication was administered, and how the whole process went.
I explained that normally I am slammed with very high doses of medication, and then crash, which takes months to recover from. I asked for the drugs to be (titrated) up with an increase every 3 days so that my body, and poor old brain got used to them.
Guess what, it worked.
Yes I was manic (in hospital) for probably 2-3 weeks until the medication started kicking in, and then it got to full strength after another 2 weeks.
No Crash, which for me is wonderful. Obviously it costs more to have me in hospital for another couple of weeks, but I actually feel fairly normal three weeks out of hospital. Already the Olanzapine dose has been halved over the last 3 weeks, and can probably be reduced a little more in another week.
I actually feel OK! Well a bit sleepy, but who wouldn't on a load of medication designed to do that.
In the meantime I have been enjoying a bit of gardening and been doing some cooking.
Of note this evening was a very fine Bangladeshi Curry I made about two weeks ago from Jersey-Angus grass fed local Beef. I bought the whole shin and cooked it and then portioned it for the freezer. I have done this a number of times before as it is a beautiful curry.
I also made a vegetable curry to use up some courgettes and turnips, very sweet and fresh ones though.
For the very first time I made Chapattis. The dough turned out exactly right (beginners luck!), and once I got the hang of rolling out, (after the first attempt) all went well. I halved the recipe, and made smaller rounds as I was using.. you guessed it a smaller skillet.
However, as there is quite a bit of vegetable curry, a little beef, and some rice left, I am going to have another go at Chappatis for lunch tomorrow and try using a wok.
My Husband seemed very impressed, however dinner was a bit late as beginners do not make Chapattis very quickly, we ate them all but one, and then couldn't finish the curry so I guess that's a success then!
So there, you can't get more normal than that..
Bit boring, but as the Psychiatrist keeps saying, you can't stay Manic all the time... pity but there it is.
Peaceful dreams, may God's blessing soak you like morning dew, and make you feel refreshed and ready for anything He has planned for you today, (or tomorrow).