Right, so here we are. We have Jesus deified as the memory of 'Sinai' for us gentiles, and then the problem of not turning up. We then go into 'Golden Calf' mode in exactly the same manner as the Israelites did when Moses was 24 hours late turning up! Yup we are still waiting!
If it wasn't tragic it would be funny.
The problem for me has always been that the doctrine I have been taught, doesn't actually explain what I hear Jesus saying in the Gospels. I understood from the Gospels that by allowing Jesus to be the 'entry point' to understanding the whole Bible, (as a Gentile), that the possibility was there for anyone to both come to terms with themself/Jesus, and then to be able to approach God from a new way of being both at one with yourself, and at 'one-ness' with Both Jesus and God, as the 'inner and outer' reflection of God/Human relationship, within which we can find ourselves mirrored and magnified and diminished within. Yup took me a while to get my head round it.
I haven't a clue if this is someone else's theology, but everyone else seems to make it up as they go along, this is actually what I think and feel at the moment. This does not mean I might 'change my mind'. I might, I might not!
I hear Jesus saying that whatever I have done, you may do also. Having just read chapter 8, I would say that we have 'dressed Christ up', and then 'Dressed him Down'. Both in the narrative of the Bible Gospel accounts, and in our theology.
I have always had my suspicions about Paul of Tarsus. Who basically re-dressed the person of Jesus in a new robe of priesthood quite different from the 'seamless robe' that the Roman soldiers cast lots for.
I can recognise the person of Jesus as both the one who has acheived the crown of the Torah in his own day, and the person of Moses type who has still to return from the mountain today. That this return we expect and have waited so long for is really the awakening within ourselves of the real truth, that where this apotheosis occurs within divine relationship, there is the spirit of Christlikeness.
Looking at it this way then Paul was the antichrist. The antithesis of this aspect of divine gifting that Avivah describes on page 399. From 'Here, all Moses'... to (William Blake). It's a good thing I am living now, I would have got a bit crispy round the edges in the inquisition!
Paul eloquently describes and re-describes the message of the written Torah. We find nothing new in his writings from the old testament. As a Christian, I do not feel I have had access to the 'play' that Moses has generated as an adjunctive perspective that reads from the margins and spaces and brings a spacious interpretation of what is not actual in the written text but inhabits experiental engagement with it.
Um, I also realised that top of page 402, answers a lot of my own psychiatric nightmare. I don't need to describe it, but it is enough for me to know there is a perfectly good reason for me to be stark raving mad, and have always had a deep suspicion that something had shattered my personality. Yup, I was definately an accident waiting to happen too! Still, all is well that ends well. At least it's only taken 54 years to pretty well sort myself out! (It has taken a lot of effort from everybody, so other than taking the medicine, I can't claim any real sense of acheivement in this, just a relief that I managed to keep hanging in there, and that God never deserted me or my Husband).
Very challenging chapter, and that is just the first four and half pages. I might have this book finished by Christmas at this rate!