That the enjoyment of a cigarette is severely diminished without caffeine as a 'twin hit'. Drinking de-caffinated coffee just tastes like chicory. If I wanted to drink Chicory I would buy it. It doesn't say there is any in it on the packet but I can definately taste it. The redbush tea is nice enough but it makes me thirsty. I have some decaffinated teabags. These aren't too bad, but I have no desire to make a cup of tea or coffee unless I am going to get a hit. Then there is the diminished enjoyment of the smoking to consider.
These are important questions for a self confessed addict. Can I seriously consider becoming a non addictive person, when it seems I like being a tea/coffee and fag addict. Besides I had a couple of small cups of real coffee this morning, and I feel like doing a comment or two.
The last few days without the caffeine, I have actually done housework, and sorted a few miniscule things out, which I suppose is rewarding, and shows a move toward normality, (other people's not mine!)
I would rather not clean anything until it got a life of it's own and bit me. I wonder if there is such a condition as 'Uncompulsive Cleaning Disorder, which is the other extreme. It's not being Lazy, it's that the task seems overwhelming. I suppose they are flipsides of the same neurosis.... Hey I have a neurosis, wow! Now I feel better, this makes me much more ordinary. The trouble is I have cleared up the house without any real difficulty. Drach, might have to accept I just felt overwhelmed at how untidy the house was.
I have been posting too much on RT for my liking. I do get over involved with things. I suppose I gave myself a break from putting another post on here. It is obviously caffeine related that I end up doing this. That and not having anyone to talk to because I don't go out! I am probably very self contained, well I was untill I started doing this. Now I think I look like the intro to the Monty Python Show. Barking mad, and feeling a lot less shut up in myself.
I wonder I I could just let myself have caffeine at the weekends? Saturday and Sunday seems a fair deal. I could max out on coffee on a Saturday, come down on Sunday and do something useful with the rest of the week. Yup this is a good excuse for another cup of coffee today! It is amazing how the furtive mind finds ways to justify it'self! (Better not have any more coffee).
Might come back later if I think of anything useful!
These are important questions for a self confessed addict. Can I seriously consider becoming a non addictive person, when it seems I like being a tea/coffee and fag addict. Besides I had a couple of small cups of real coffee this morning, and I feel like doing a comment or two.
The last few days without the caffeine, I have actually done housework, and sorted a few miniscule things out, which I suppose is rewarding, and shows a move toward normality, (other people's not mine!)
I would rather not clean anything until it got a life of it's own and bit me. I wonder if there is such a condition as 'Uncompulsive Cleaning Disorder, which is the other extreme. It's not being Lazy, it's that the task seems overwhelming. I suppose they are flipsides of the same neurosis.... Hey I have a neurosis, wow! Now I feel better, this makes me much more ordinary. The trouble is I have cleared up the house without any real difficulty. Drach, might have to accept I just felt overwhelmed at how untidy the house was.
I have been posting too much on RT for my liking. I do get over involved with things. I suppose I gave myself a break from putting another post on here. It is obviously caffeine related that I end up doing this. That and not having anyone to talk to because I don't go out! I am probably very self contained, well I was untill I started doing this. Now I think I look like the intro to the Monty Python Show. Barking mad, and feeling a lot less shut up in myself.
I wonder I I could just let myself have caffeine at the weekends? Saturday and Sunday seems a fair deal. I could max out on coffee on a Saturday, come down on Sunday and do something useful with the rest of the week. Yup this is a good excuse for another cup of coffee today! It is amazing how the furtive mind finds ways to justify it'self! (Better not have any more coffee).
Might come back later if I think of anything useful!
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